Nesting...

With less than 5 weeks to go to my actual due date, I am beginning some serious nesting. This weekend, Steve and I started working on the nursery (I'll post pictures when it's "done"), and somehow I ended up reorganizing the crawlspace in the basement!

When I was pregnant with Silas, I remember scrubbing with a toothbrush the tracks that the drawers in my bathroom slide in and out on - very important to have cleaned those before bringing home a baby. Really, they could use another scrubbing as it has been four 1/2 years since I last paid attention to them. It's so funny how something I've been able to ignore suddenly becomes all consuming. It's the fear of the craziness to come, I think.

This time, it's not so terrifying. Now I have a little idea of what to expect, and if nothing else, I won't be going back to work (outside the home, I mean), and that alone will be so different. I really do feel lucky that I get to stay home and be a full time mom. There certainly are days when I feel like I'm "just a mom" with very little to offer, but that message of insecurity quickly evaporates when I look at my sweet four-year-old boy.

Today is a serious laundry day - time to wash up all Silas' old clothes getting them ready for his baby brother. It's so fun to pull out all those teeny onesies and sleepers and imagine what they will look like when Josiah is here filling them out. (For those of you who didn't know, we're having a boy and we're calling him Josiah.)

I just picked up Silas from preschool, and we stopped at the library to return a stack of books and pick up some new ones. He is on the computer next to me playing computer games. We LOVE the library, and right now it's so easy to go - that will change too, I think.

We are praying for a smooth transition with Josiah, that he will be a peaceful baby, and that Silas will be a wonderful big brother, just like my big brother, Uncle Dusty, and daddy's big brother, Uncle Martin. Silas has some pretty big shoes to fill, but I know he's up to the task.